Dark brown lalala~

and LONGGGG
well i will be cutting it soon. soon meaning by the end of this month or beginning of NOV depending on my productivity for my projects.

guilt...really???

seriously...why do i feel guilty even though i know i did nothing wrong. i really hate it when things like this happen. =\ just when i thought life was complicated enough...it just had to get worse. ohh and school is not helping either. supply chain class is the most boring class everrrr. like i would literally fall asleep on my laptop if i wasn't chatting with my oppa last class...gosh i dread that class. the same thing will happen again tomorrow in class. ohh joy  -__-

...

Just like this I made a promise that I will erase you from my memories. I won't cry you a river because I'm just that kind of person. Just one drop of tear is enough for me to realize that you can hurt me like no one ever can in this world. I am erasing you from my memories so I won't get hurt again.  Annyeong nae sarang. Have a good life.

2 best songs from Hurricane Venus album

BoA - 한별 (Implode)

돌이킬 수 없는 시간들
The times that we can't go back to
무너져 내리는 감정들
The feelings that have fallen
붙잡아도 손틈 사이로 흩어져
Even if I grab them, they fall apart in my hand
하염없이 흘러내리는
Because of the constant flowing tears
눈물 때문에 자꾸 나는 시선 둘 곳 찾아 헤메이고 있어.
I keep on looking back

나를 떠나지마 그 말 한마디가
"Don't leave me"
그때는 왜 그렇게도 힘들었는지
Why were those words so hard back then
내 곁에 머물러줘 그 말 한마디가
"Stay next to me"
그때는 왜 그렇게도 힘들었을까.
Why were those words so hard back then

빈틈없이 나를 채우는
Completly, wholefully
부서져 내리는 기억들
I cherished the broken and falling memories
비워내려 애를 써도 소용없고
No matter how much I try, there's no use
모질게 나를 꼭 붙잡는
The yearning holds me tight
그리움들이 자꾸 나를
Even though it keeps me lingering
머물지도 돌아서지도 못 하게해.
It won't even let me turn around

안녕이란 그 말, 흔해빠진 그 말
Words of parting, words of weariness
그 말 한마디에 많고 많았던 웃음과 눈물을 묻고
Those words are drenched in many smiles and tears
거짓말처럼 그 어떤 일도 없었다는 듯 살아질 수 있을까.
Like a lie, would I be able to live as if nothing happened?

It's so damn hard for me to let you go
you know I can't let you go
no I can't let you go

그렇게 떠난 너를
You left me like that
자꾸 떠올리게 돼 나는
but I keep seeing you
붙잡아도 손틈 사이로 흩어져
Even if I grab you, you fall apart in my hand
아직도 그대론데 나는
It's still you
기다리고 있는데 너를
I keep waiting for you
텅빈 안부 조차 없는 그댄 어디에.
At the place where there's no empty memories of you

내 곁에 머물러줘.
Please stay with me

Credits : KoReAnBoBa@BoAjjang.com

Don't Know What To Say

This moment may be our last,
Can you feel the distance that is as great as the emptiness in my heart?
Why weren't we able to be more honest with each other?
I guess our unnecessary pride makes it lethargic

Don’t know what to say now because of the countless thoughts
Don’t know what to say now (Nothing to say now) these words linger on my lips
Will we be able to love like our past, like our first, as if nothing happened?
I just don’t know what to say now

If we had backed up one step, it wouldn't have came to this,
It's too late to turn back what happened not because of fault but because of selfishness

Don’t know what to say now, I can't utter a word,
Don’t know what to say now, a sigh represents my feelings,
Will we be able to love like our past, like our first, as if nothing happened?
I just don’t know what to say

Because it may be a regret, because it may be a scar,
I can't say even a word,
Because it hurts, because I'm scared,
I don't wanna hurt because I loved you

Don’t know what to say now
You know that we can’t fix it again
I don’t know what to say now
I just don’t know what to say

Don’t know what to say now
Because of the countless thoughts (I can't think of anything)
Don't know what to say now
these words linger on my lips (even at this moment that may be our last)
I can't even express my own feelings,
Because the numerous memories won't let me go
I just don’t know what to say now
I don’t know what to say now

Credits : ginaaax3@BoAjjang.com

Se7en - I'm going crazy

naega mianhadaneun mareun jeoldae meonjeo motaneun motnan naneun
ohiryeo soril jilleo deo keuge geureoke neowaui haruga sijakdwae (here we go again)
geotjabeul sudo eob-si michyeobeorineun u-ri I dont know what to do
jigeum wae datuneun jido nan molla

naega eotteon mareul handa haedo jigeum mankeumeun
neon deutjil anha (you never listen)
nal mitji anha no~
cheoeum uri mannasseul ttaee geu maeu-meun eodiro gan geonji byeonhan geonji
neomu meolli wa beorin geolkka

ije sangcheoppunin sarangeun sirheo nan
maeil banbokdoeneun datume jichyeo nan
honjail ttae boda oeroun kkeuteomneun sigan soge gachin geot gata
neoreul tatago sipji anha urin gachi michyeoga-na bwa
i’m going crazy crazy
i sarang soge we just going crazy

ijen kkeuchiraneun nae mareun jinsim anin jinsimin naui mameun
sunsikgane neol jujeoantge hae sogeuro nan babocheoreom huhoe-hae (that i did u wrong)
ireoke maeilga-chi apaya haneun uri
i don’t know what to do
dodaeche wae mannaya haneunji molla

niga eotteon mareul handa haedo jigeum mankeumeun
nan deutjil anha (no I don’t listen)
neol mitji anha no~
cheoeum uri mannasseul ttaee geu maeu-meun eodiro gan geonji byeonhan geonji
neomu meolli wabeorin geolkka

ije sangcheoppunin sarangeun sirheo nan
maeil banbokdoeneun datume jichyeo nan
honjail ttae boda oeroun kkeuteomneun sigan soge gachin geot gata
neoreul tatago sipji anha urin gachi michyeoga-na bwa
i’m going crazy crazy
i sarang soge we just going crazy

naega hal su inneunge
amugeotdo eopdaneunge nal michige hae
ajik neoreul saranghaneunde
nae nunmullon bujokhanga bwa
neomuna apado ije na hollo
nae jasineul chajeuryeogo hae good bye~

ije sangcheoppunin sarangeun sirheo nan
maeil banbokdoeneun datume jichyeo nan
honjail ttae boda oeroun kkeuteomneun sigan soge gachin geot gata
neoreul tatago sipji anha urin gachi michyeoga-na bwa
i’m going crazy crazy
i sarang soge we just going crazy

Credit: romanization.wordpress.com

Love Pain - Second fav from Lucifer album

Romanization
Uh uh uh my love is pain
Uh uh uh everybody know it hurts

uri gadeukdamgin chueok han jang beorigo
dasi dajimhanda oneul neol jiundago
beoreutcheoreom andwae
saenggakcheoreom andwae
sal su eobseo sal su eobseo gaseum gadeuk Love Pain
mam gipeun gosen chueongmani namaseo
neol dasi chatneunda You You Love Pain

jiul sudo eobseo beoril sudo eobseo
tto harureul beotigo
ne ane nan gatyeo nae maeumman jichyeo (No No No)
niga eomneun haruga waeiri himdeunji
sal su eobseo sal sueobseo gaseum gadeuk Love Pain
malhal su eomneun beoril su eomneun
neomchyeo heureun my Love Pain

neon naebang gadeuk neoui hyanggil chaeugo (I want you to know)
ijen amugeotdo hal su eopge mandeunda
nunmureul chamneunda

jiul sudo eobseo beoril sudo eobseo
tto harureul beotigo
ne ane nan gatyeo nae maeumman jichyeo (No No No)
niga eomneun haruga waeiri himdeunji
sal su eobseo sal sueobseo gaseum gadeuk Love Pain
malhal su eomneun beoril su eomneun
neomchyeo heureun my Love Pain

eoril jeok nappeun beoreut gochideut neol jiwodo
dokhan yageul samkideut oh yeah
heureun nunmulmankeum chueogeul deo samkinda

jiul sudo eobseo beoril sudo eobseo
tto harureul beotigo
ne ane nan gatyeo nae maeumman jichyeo (No No No)
niga eomneun haruga waeiri himdeunji
sal su eobseo sal sueobseo gaseum gadeuk Love Pain
malhal su eomneun beoril su eomneun
kkeunheul su eomneun Love of my life

ichyeojiji anha jiwojiji anha
tto haruga jinago
beoreutcheoreom apa oneureun deo apa (No No No No)
ijeuryeodeon maeumi eoneusae yakhaejyeo
sal su eobseo sal su eobseo gaseum gadeuk Love Pain
gajil su eomneun sangcheoman juneun
you’re my Love Pain

Credit: romanization.wordpress.com

Translation
Uh, uh, uh
My love is pain
Uh, uh, uh
Everybody know it hurts
I throw away a page filled with our memories
And I make a promise again that I’ll erase you today
I can’t do it, it’s like a habit, I can’t do it like I thought I could
I can’t live, I can’t live, my heart is filled with love pain
Since there are memories left in thoughtful places
I’m searching for you again, you, you, love pain
*I can’t even erase you
I can’t even throw you away
I endure another day again
I’m trapped inside of you
My heart is just tired, no, no, no
Why is a day without you so hard?
I can’t live, I can’t live
My heart is filled with love pain
My unspeakable, indispensable
Overflowing love pain
You fill my room completely with your scent
I want to know you
Now you make me unable to do anything
I hold back my tears
*Repeat
Like fixing a bad habit from when you were young
Erasing you would be like swallowing poisonous medicine
I surpress more memories as much as the tears I’ve cried
*Repeat
The unbreakable love of my life
I can’t forget you, I can’t erase you, another day passes by
It hurts like a habit, it hurts more today, no, no, no, no
My heart that’s been trying to forget becomes weaker
I can’t live, I can’t live, my heart is filled with love pain
All you give is the scar of not being able to have you
You’re my love pain

credit & sources
shinee forums international
korean lyrics credit rocketdiary @ twitter
translation lyrics credit kimchi hana @ shinee.net

SHINee(샤이니)_LUCIFER_뮤직비디오(MusicVideo) HD

LUCIFER ALBUM IS TOTAL AWESOMENESS!!! WOOT!!!

i love every single track. but i gotta say Obsession is my fav. Love Pain is the second. Lucifer is third in place. the rest are good too. shinee has totally outdone themselves and other artists this year. i believe their comeback stage will be epic with super cool dance moves. minho-ah, you've improved soooo much compare to RDD album. noona is so proud of you. taeminnie's vocal has matured as well. great job on this album boys. all the best. <3

jjong is a brilliant lyricist. he composed my fav track. <333

R o m a n i z e d L y r i c s: Obsession
deo tteollineun du son got tteoreojil chojeom gojangnan nae dari yeogi wae seoinneunji
gieokjocha anna museowo jineun geol banggeumkkaji utgoitdeon neon eodinneunji

(Why) jangnangateun sori nal tteona beoryeonni neon jeo meolli
(Why) huimihaejilkka jokswaegateun hyungteo

* yokhae nochyeobeorin nal yokhae
muneojin nae simjangeun nal beorijima nal honja dujima oechigo itjiman
neol wonhae michin deut nan neol wonhae
nal tteonan ne ipsureun saranghajima nal saranghajima neol beorin geojanha

danji kkeuteomneun sarang jugo sipeotdeon geotppun deo neomchin sarangi geudael joreul juriya
sangcheonan gaseume jjitgyeojin nanaldeul gil irheun sarang, nunmul teokkkaji chaolla

(Why) ajikdo nae ane seulpeun annyeongman geonnaeneun geonji
(Why) oneulkkajiman nal milchyeonaejima

* Repeat

neo jebal nunchi chae jugil nan tto dareun neoin geol
ne eojetbamui angmongkkaji gamssa ana soneul nochi ma

* Repeat
** gyeote chagawojin ne gyeote
jjitgyeojin nae gaseumeun nal tteonajima deo meoreojijima ne soneul japjiman
gieokhae kkeutnae neol itji motae
beoryeojin nae apeumdo nan itji anha ijeul su eobtjanha nega jun geojanha

Rap: saranghandaneun iyujocha joega dwaetji gipeun sangcheodeureun ta deureoga jaega dwaetji
hajiman irnneun geotboda itneun geosi deo apaol ppun sumjugimyeo ibyeorui gotonge seoseohi nan jugeogal ppun
geu sunganeuro Bring it back!

nal beorijima

Romanized Lyrics
(Credits: Sheryl @ Sheryl's Blog)

Translation:
Obsession (Lyrics by Jonghyun)
My hands tremble more
I’ll lose my focus shortly
Why my broken legs standing here
I can’t even remember, I become scared
Where are you, who has laughing until just now
(Why) Have fun noises left me? You’re far away
(Why) Is it getting dim? These scars are like shackles
*Curse me, curse me for letting go
Don’t leave me, my collapsed heart
Don’t leave me alone, I’m screaming
Want you, I want you like crazy
Your lips that left me shouldn’t love
Don’t love me, I threw you away
All I wanted was simply to give you an endless love
I had no idea that more excessive love would strangle you
Those days when I was torn from my wounded heart
A love that lost its way, I fill up with tears
(Why) Is it that I still only bring out sad hellos
(Why) Just until today, don’t push me away
*Repeat
I hope that you’ll catch on
That I’m a different you
I even embrace your
Nightmare from last night
Don’t let go of my hand
*Repeat
Your side, your side that has become cold
Don’t leave me, my torn heart
Don’t become even further away
Although I’m holding your hand
Remember, end it, I can’t forget you
I won’t forget my pain of being thrown away
I can’t forget it, you gave it to me
Even the reason I love became a sin
The deep wounds slowly
Burnt up and turned to ash
But to forget will be more painful than to lose it
As I kill my breath, I’m going to die
From the agony of goodbye
Bring it back to that moment
Don’t throw me away
credit & sources
shinee forums international
korean lyrics credit rocketdiary @ twitter
translation lyrics credit kimchi hana @ shinee.net

OTP = one true pairing

“You’re gonna be the death of me,” Jonghyun murmurs.

“Yeah? I’d much rather spend eternity with you, though,” Key whispers back. 

JONGKEY is my favorite OTP in this whole world!!!
*goes around fangirling* lalala~

Can't U See - Son Dam Bi

Romanization

ooh geudaegat deunal gipieo deunal

onjena naegae tteolyeoga

gwadaela jugeo misseosipdeoneol

sodyagi mameulneogimyeon

onjenaseokhae oh whoa

nimeomanhi haeseodeuleonae

oh can’t u see neolbeodeo nigasaenganal

deosaenganal oh oh can’t u feel

yeojeonhi geunari deosaenganeundae

our love won’t fade away nal deonalnaneun

manamgyeo deugeo kajitmal

ibyeolrinan heunanmal jeochadeo atjitmal

oh whoa neo idwideobodeo dalpeunya

nae swidajuhae gibeodeodimyeon

deoeolyeo saeneoui jidaphae

ibyeoljimalja ideojimalra

deodasim naui balgeoreul

mitchingeot gatjeul oh whoa

gaseumhaeni neoreul beoreunae

oh can’t u see beonalsarang ijaejiweo ganeundae oh

oh can’t u feel anreonajeuweo manhiseomyeon haetjinae

our love won’t fade away nal deonalnaneun

manamgyeo deugeo kajitmal

ibyeolrinan heunanmal jeochadeo atjitmal

oh whoa neo idwideobodeo dalpeunya

neogeudaereo deoyawajulae

geuyangdeoda heomyeondoe

meoljiweotbeon riseumyeonneungeol oh

maenmareun neummeuldeo deomaenmaneun gaseumdeo

dajijeoseu itneunalya oh yeah

our love won’t fade away neunaega aniganeun mareulbaekdeo deuseutmal

gaseumseogeul nameulmallyeo sancheojujitmal

oh whoa neouidwideo barabeolbeunya

Credit: romanization.wordpress.com

Translation

Those cold and teasing words,
You always run to me and, with a smile, give me hug
It melts my bitter heart then I wake up
My tears keep falling

oh can’t u see
I think about you all the time again and again
oh can’t u feel
I still think about that day

Our love wont fade away
Throw away the words like you’re leaving me and don’t go
Don’t  say farewell so easily
Since I’m walking behind you

I got drunk as I walk on the street then I’m standing infront of your house
(Telling myself) “Let’s don’t do this” “Don’t be like this”
As I’m stepping backward
Deep inside my heart, I’m calling out your name like crazy

oh can’t u see
I’m erasing my obvious love
oh can’t u feel
Only The hazy memories are more vivid.

Will you come back and be like you used to?
Just come back is alright
I can’t erase you
Dry tears and heart,
I can forget it all

Our love wont fade away
Don’t erupt into words that I’m not the one
Don’t hurt me with words which are still being left in your heart
Since I’m watching you from behind.

Credit: muizism.wordpress.com

Jay is back after 9 months

Jay Park greeted by tearing fans at Incheon Airport

i still can't get that picture of him leaving Korea 9 months ago in a white beanie out of my head. and now he came back wearing the same beanie. it reminds me of those painful days and false hopes.
welcome back jaebeom oppa <3 although 2PM cannot be 7 anymore i still wish you success on your solo career.
a hottest and a jaywalker.

Officially a jongkey stan

so why this post? all i can say is i've been reading too many jongkey fanfics on lj these days (hence the influence)
i've been a  jongkey fan  ever since i saw their romantic performance on mnet countdown. but this just made me love them so much more.
http://ontokki.livejournal.com/7735.html#cutid1
and this of course

 credit: happyyoyo@lj
i love it so much cuz the lyrics from romantic fits in so perfectly (romantic is my ultimate jongkey song bb. their harmony is amazing!!)

"i became so similar to you that i even copied your habits
there is more of you inside me than myself"

here is SHINee's Romantic Performance on Mnet Countdown
SHINee Romantic and F.T. Island Pretty vs. Cool

medium or long hair?

soooooo im thinking about cutting my "long" hair. well my mom thinks its very long. i just think its long considering i haven't cut it in about 4 months. i say i usually cut my hair every 4 months cuz any longer than that and my lovely hair greets me with split ends which freaks me out. i once didn't cut it for 6 months. o__0 i still don't know how i endured that. anyway. im thinking maybe its time to cut my hair shorter since its summer (shorter means somewhere below my shoulders). just when i was thinking about cutting it, the weather got cooler which made me think twice about cutting it. i also found a brilliant way to curl my hair without using any heat a.k.a no curler or straightener (yes you can curl your hair with a straighter). perfect for me! i hate using heat on my hair. it makes me feel like im frying my hair alive. i don't even straighten my hair once a month. so much for that 150 bucks straightener i got huh. ehh got off topic again. ok. so heres how you do it. first you need to wash your hair. then dry it for a bit with a towel. NO BLOWDRYING!!! you need to leave some moisture in your hair in order for this to work. once your hair is half dry, brush it so that everything is smooth. apply some holding mousse/spray and part your hair into 2 at the back. twist the 2 parts around each other and twist again to form a bun at the back and secure with a hairband. all you have to do is wait til your hair is dried (4 to 6 hours depending on how thick/long your hair is). i just slept through it since i showered really late last night. here is how my hair looks like

not bad huh? it doesn't look too defined. it looks more like loose curls and wavy which i love. so this made me think about canceling my haircut appointment i have tomorrow. i want to play around with my long hair more before i cut it. maybe i will move my appointment to next next saturday. give myself 2 more weeks to play around with my long hair. ^^

on a side note: our allkpop shinee thread is dead these days. we got nothing to spazz about after minho's jumpsuit, key's sparkly eyes and ridiculous hairdo in Dream Concert. sparkly eyed jigglypuff rocks btw. XD SME needs to announce when the boys will be back. they can't just leave the fangirls in desperation. we've been waiting for their comeback for wayyy too long. i miss my shinee boys. !__!


EDIT: i did it! finally! this is how my hair looks now. well minus the curls. my hairdresser curled it even though i didn't ask for curls. sooo w/e!

3 Years and 6 Months Lyrics and Translation

3 Years and 6 Months Lyrics
Credit: Lyricsmode and RyouxE@youtube for translation

You, and you, and me, for a long time
You, and you, and me, for a long time

Itcheul suga obseoyo hamkkehan shigan
Samnyeon yukgae woriranun oraen shigan
Mani himdeureoseoyo
Mani gidaryeoseoyo
Appeun shigan sokeseo nal nohajulgeyo my love

Jeom jeom mugeopge nureojineun du eoggae
Hajiman ije ppyeolchil geoya sumgyeodun nalgae
Nuguboda nuppge ollaga I'm so fly
Samnyeon yukgae woriran shiganeun naegen yak
Haru haruga deo isang jimi anin gidaegam
Ireolge obseo waenyamyeon naegen nal
Sumswige hanun eomakgua chumgwa mudaega itgi ttaemune
Nan gyeosuk noraehagetji

Ilbon ilchuga ilnyeon gattatdeon shiganieotchyo
Maeil himdeulgo maeil appeungo ulda jamdulgo
Shigyeoga gojang natgo maeumdo gojangnatjyo
Himdul ddae norael haettgo appeul ddae norael haettchyeo my love

Itcheul suga obseoyo hamkkehan shigan
Samnyeon yukgae woriranun oraen shigan
Mani himdeureoseoyo
Mani gidaryeoseoyo
Appeun shigan sokeseo nal nohajulgeyo my love

Kumi itgo yeoljeongi itgi ttaeme shijakhan isang
Naege deungdulril su obseo ije shijakhan pisang
Hansum swul shigan jocha obdeon jinan naldul
Gu eotteon geotgwado pigyo andwol noryakui gapseochi
Kumi itgo yeoljeongi itgi ttaeme shijakhan isang
Naege deungdolril su obseo ije shijakhan pisang
Hansum swul shigan jocha obdeon jinan naldul
Gu eotteon geotgwado bigyo andwol noryakui gapseochi

Nan mideul su itjyo maldo an dwuneun keumgattun ireol
Na dureyopji anjyo nuga mweoraedo gidaryeoseoyo
Uldagado useotgo himdul ttaen ireonatjyo
Ije boyeojulgeyo nareul boyeojulgeyo my love

Itcheul suga obseoyo hamkkehan shigan
Samnyeon yukgae woriranun oraen shigan
Mani himdeureoseoyo
Mani gidaryeoseoyo
Appeun shigan sokeseo nal nohajulgeyo my love

Jigeum I sunnganmaneul gidaryeoseoyo
Jukeol mankkeum I jaril gidayeoseoyo
Gieoki namgyeojeoseo mani himdeureoseoyo
Hulryeotdeon nunmulmankkeum jjalji anun shiganieyo

Translation

You, and you, and me..for a long time

You, and you, and me..for a long time...

I can’t forget the time we’ve spent together

The long three and a half years

It’s been really hard. I waited for a long time.

I’ll let myself go from the painful times, my love

Rap: My two shoulders seen to sag more heavily

But now, I’ll spread out my hidden wings

Go higher than anyone else. I’m so fly

The three and a half years are an aid to me

Each day is no longer a burden, but a hope

I have nothing to lose because

I have the music, the dance, and the stage that let me breathe

I’ll keep singing

That time when every minute, every second, felt like a year

Always hard, always painful, crying myself to sleep

The clock that was broken, along with my broken heart

Whenever it got hard or painful, I sang, my love

I can’t forget the time we’ve spent together

The long three and a half years

It’s been really hard. I waited for a long time.

I’ll let myself go from the painful times, my love

Rap: As long as my initial dreams and passion hold me down

I can no longer turn back, this flight that’s taken off

The days when I didn’t even have time to sigh

The value of my hard work that can’t compare to anything else

I can believe it, those unbelievable, dream-like things

I’m not afraid no matter what anyone says. I’ve been waiting

Even when I cried, I laughed. When it got hard, I rose

Now I’ll show you. I’ll show myself to you, my love

I can’t forget the time we’ve spent together

The long three and a half years

It’s been really hard. I waited for a long time.

I’ll let myself go from the painful times, my love

I’ve been waiting for this moment

Waiting so long that I could die

It was hard because the memories still linger

The time doesn’t compare to the tears I’ve shed

[FMV] Secret - 3 Years & 6 Months [ENG SUB] (by Ryoutarou)

stuff thats been on my mind for the past few days

i was on my twitter a few days ago and clicked on this website out of curiosity. its a website that allows people to post their secrets or thoughts. i can relate to many entries on that website. i even cried after reading some entries. it scares me to death because given my circumstances, the same thing could happen to me and i will have to make the same decisions when the time comes. i honestly don't want to face it.
i've been under a lot of stress since the beginning of 4th year. i wanted to focus on school as much as i can. wake up, go to school, eat, go home, and sleep. thats pretty much my routine for the past 8 months.i did pretty good in my courses. but the trade off wasn't insignificant for me. i cut all the dramiang/animeing. i stopped paying attention to people around me. I didn't talk to them unless it was needed. as a result..it becomes so awkward that i cannot start a conversation with them even though i really want to. i swear. i never thought it would turn out like that. now that i think about it..i might had taken everything for granted, hoping things will still be the same after 8 months. everything happens for a reason i guess. i hope you are happy with the way it is now.

I miss seeing your name lighting up whenever you talk to me on MSN.You don’t start conversations with me anymore. And I’m too scared to start one

i can totally relate to this.

god. msn makes life complicated. 

the pics explain it all.

k. soooo i've been staring at this perfection for the past half an hour or so? it is my background on my lappy now. how can you possibly not like this guy?? Choi Minho is <3<3<3

key shi neomu yeppo yo

puppy jjong

day 11 of summer

i've been pretty much ignoring this blog because i was so occupied with my job hunting (writing cover letters and stuff) and my allkpop babies. in terms of productivity...mines between 0% and 1% these days. i just don't feel like doing anything. of course allkpop's shinee forum contributes -50% of my productivity, the other half was my own procrastination. i know. old habits never die huh. -,-
on another note, this is probably the 5th time SHAWOLS own allkpop server since we had pages flying. allkpop needs a better server so it won't crash and burn every time shawols spazz or just talking to each other. seriously, we weren't even spazzing over shinee at the time. it just happened. o__0

i was planning to post some minho but dun really feel like arranging the pics right now. i only got like 4 - 5 hours of sleep last night cuz i didn't know the deadline to submit the job applications was today. anyway, this is all for now. i will update with pics tomorrow. hopefully i will be able to wake up before noon.

edit: just remember to post this. i got my very own allkpop siggie 2 days ago (i think). courtesy of Ms. Crystal Parrish.

 isn't it so cool? im a total failure when it comes to graphic stuff so i bugged her to make one for me. she was very nice and made this for me. ^^ thank you crystal!

holding a netbook never looks this hot before

key ♥♥♥

random old pics of shinee

this looks normal until u see jjong in a dino hat. i couldn't stop loling. loll

credit: fuckyeahchoiminhotumblr

shining SHINee

random pics and some gifs of SHINee

starting with taetae and jjong! i love taemin's hair like this. he needs to show his forehead more! jjong is such a dork but soooo cute.

 from taemin's piano solo "River Flows In You" before his performance with 8eight

what can i say..i just love the whole suits and roses thing. taetae looks so handsome. but im not gonna fangirl over him. why u ask? cuz hes only 17. lol. he could be my cute little dongsae though.

now its jjong!
i love this outfit! its a weird poncho/sweater thingie. but he looks so good in it. ♥__♥

jongtae again. i believe this was during their Replay/Love like Oxygen days. love the dress shirt and suspender look! jjong is hugging taetae and key looks like he was rejected. LOL. gotta love macros.

 onjong

lets continue with leader onew~ "whatever he does, its onew sangtae~"

at suju's kiss the radio

minho (my first bias. and still is)

yoogeun a.k.a mini minho from hello baby

father and son. don't they look alike?

yoogeun-moogeun using his aegyo tactics to avoid jjong appa's payment collection. toooo cute! <3

 key collection from their photoshoot in Australia. hes sooo pretty!

 lastly...taekey

group pics will be up in next post. no copyright infringement intended.

day 1 of freedom

my last exam was yesterday. after the exam i went to High Park with Emma and Cherry to take some pics with the cherry blossoms. unfortunately we were a bit too late. the trees have already shed most of the flowers. we did manage to get some pics though. it was my first time going to high park. i didn't know it was that big. we walked around for like 45 min to get to the place where cherry trees are. we walked all the way to Grenadier pond. walking downhill was fun. it didn't seem like it was that steep but walking uphill to go back was a major pain. my feet and back hurt after. -__- ohh well...we had fun so it was worth the pain i guess.

as for today...i just stayed home and watched tv for the whole day. woke up around 9AM. yah i know...new record for me since i had been sleeping at 6 or 7 am and waking up at 3 or 4 pm in the afternoon for the past...i dunno 2 or 3 weeks?? my biorhythm was soooo messed up! i guess yesterday outing tired me out pretty well and corrected my biorhythm in a way. lol.

 sooo my plans for the rest of summer...i guess i need a job? and hang out with friends as usual. rezwana is coming back from the states. we will definitely hang out for sure since we haven't seen each other after east york. its gonna be fun!! this is just hypothetical...if i do get a job...maybe i will go back to burma for the first time in 6 years. my best friend is gonna be spending her summer back home (she lives in Singapore currently). so maybe i will join her. i pray that i get a job so that i have the money to buy the plane ticket? lol. i need to earn at least 2k to buy the plane ticket. maybe 500 more to spend during my vacation. now this is all hypothetical as i mentioned before. cuz most likely...my mom is gonna reject the idea. she is not gonna let me go by myself. *sigh* i wish i could go on a vacation on my own before i finish school. cuz once school is done...im gonna have to focus on getting a permanent job and one month vacation is just not possible for newbies. sooo yahhh.

ehh i wrote too much. my next posts shall be all SHINee!!! just can't get enough of them. 25 days before their second anniversary (May 25th 2008 was their debut date). can't believe its been 2 years since then. it seems like it was just yesterday when i heard Replay. maybe all these school work is messing up with my perception of time. seriously the past 8 months passed by toooo fast!! first semester was really fast because of BUS800 (strategic planning course) and second semester....welll crappy groups and profs...u get the drift. anyway...this is not a ranting post. i will stop here.

more bling bling ^^

bigger version of jjong in tux and roses. ^^

its becuz i love jjong so much.

sooo cute in this outfit <3

more classy photoshoots of SHINee

from November 2009 version of Sudsapda (some magazine from Thailand i believe)

starting with Leader Onew

Lead vocal JongHyun

Vocal and support rapper Key

Lead rapper MinHo (my very first shinee bias. lol.)

Lead dancer and maknae (youngest) Taemin

OnJjong

OnKey

isn't key the cutest thing??

Jjong and cute taetae

flaming minho

key min tae

very good quality group pics

minho looking very good (my current background on my laptop) ^^

 serious serious

ohh happy times

liking jjong's fav side pose and his jaw line <3