stuff thats been on my mind for the past few days

i was on my twitter a few days ago and clicked on this website out of curiosity. its a website that allows people to post their secrets or thoughts. i can relate to many entries on that website. i even cried after reading some entries. it scares me to death because given my circumstances, the same thing could happen to me and i will have to make the same decisions when the time comes. i honestly don't want to face it.
i've been under a lot of stress since the beginning of 4th year. i wanted to focus on school as much as i can. wake up, go to school, eat, go home, and sleep. thats pretty much my routine for the past 8 months.i did pretty good in my courses. but the trade off wasn't insignificant for me. i cut all the dramiang/animeing. i stopped paying attention to people around me. I didn't talk to them unless it was needed. as a result..it becomes so awkward that i cannot start a conversation with them even though i really want to. i swear. i never thought it would turn out like that. now that i think about it..i might had taken everything for granted, hoping things will still be the same after 8 months. everything happens for a reason i guess. i hope you are happy with the way it is now.

I miss seeing your name lighting up whenever you talk to me on MSN.You don’t start conversations with me anymore. And I’m too scared to start one

i can totally relate to this.

god. msn makes life complicated.